Its been sleepless nights for me.

Damn, I'm working in 2 hours. And still I haven't had enough sleep. Tdo, bangun, tdo, bangun.

2 more fucking days til "the" interview! And honestly I'm scared. I'm very confident that I get a place in Etihad, but there's this small voice in my head saying I wont. And I dont know how I'm gonna handle this rejection. I want the job. I really do. I want a fresh a new start; MAKING THINGS RIGHT IS WHAT I WANT! And I'm hoping and praying that I do get this "2nd chance". And I'll prove it that I'll make it this time.

I fucked it up big time with my current job, and I guess not only this job, even my studies. I want this "2nd chance" so I could straighten my life out. Get everything back in order in my life, and most importantly help out my family which I have always wanted to do but I just could not afford it. My family has work my ass for me, and well soon they would be tired. And by that time I'll make sure I could afford all the assistants needed.

If I do get the job, I know it's gonna be hard for me to leave my family and them letting me go but I hope they understand that sacrifices must be made. You cant have everything you want. I'm wiling to make that sacrifice, not just for my family but for me, MYSELF! And hours before this my friend said something "..stop thinking about your friends, now its about you. You know you want the job, so take it and go for it! Dont push back because of your friends, if they are your friends they'll support you all the way.." I'm hoping that my friends do support me with this.

It's gonna be a big change in my life, and I want that change and I know that this change would be for the better. Insya-allah.