Doodles!

Things are slowing down now, pheww. Everything is back at it's normal pase, i hope.

*sigh

Gloomy weather today dun ya think? I've got a week more til training starts, and I'm so looking forward to this job! A lil bit worried tho - will be out of the country for a month or so. I've never actually been away for so long. How am I to survived? Plus it would be in Singapore and Bombay! Apparently Bombay would be fun. Looking forward to the "fun" I'm gonna go through!

*background music Stop & Stare by OneRepublic

OoOO, I got a new lappy bag! It's white! It so goes with my car as well. So kewl! And also another wallet, 'Alien Workshop' ok! Damn bloody old school siut! I think the last I saw this wallet was ages ago! I was mayb 10? I remember how it used to be the "in" brand. LOL! I remember saving up money just to get a wallet from Alien Workshop. Crazy! Tak makan at school and all, just to get the wallet!

*LOL
*background music Take A Bow by Rihanna

So, tonight would be lappys night! Starbucks, BV2? Bt it seems like there's no feedback.
Guess no one is in the mood. Crossing fingers that tonight's plans actually happens! Then can bring out my cute lappy bag!

Am I intruding anything?

I feel as I'm intruding. Maybe it's paranoia but I really do. I dont know but this past few days, its been really hard to communicate, and it makes me feel even bad because it's not just me who is feeling it. Maybe I should just stay out for awhile - dont want to be in between anyone. I would love to stay, but I guess if I'm affecting anyone than I guess it's better I do jump of. Right?

SO, I'll be jumping of for awhile yea,. I hope I didnt cause anything while I was in. It was certainly the best time after so long!! I really needed it.

*background music Terima Kasih Cinta by Afgan

xoxo

One hell of a month!

Gosh it has been one damn good exciting fascinating fabulous month! Definitely amazing weekends! Good that it all happen when I'm actually free, but at the same time its shitty cuz i ain't been working for the past 2 months. But thanks to my amazing friends, i still survived!

Alot has happen lately..

Where do I start? Arh, my career. Well, my training dates and schedule has been emailed. I'll be back to working life starting 9Th June. F*****g finally! It's nice that I'm not working, sort of like a break before a new start. (obviously we took the "break" seriously and damn I didn't regret it at all!) And as I'm also having the happiest time of my life, I also have to go through dramas - it's actually more of a daily routine thingy. Clearly YIN & YANG - balance. Praying that my career line would be good, it's time to work not play.

Altho it was an amazing month, but tears never fail to fall at least once. Issues that has nothing to do with me and issues that I could avoid has teared me up. Just as I thought things are more calmed now, but in reality when you have so much fun you unconsciously ignore the real world and when you finally reach sobriety - realized all sorts of wrong and wham, K A R M A! I guess that's just how its gonna be. Still with faith that everything will be ok.

On the party side, being a party animal is so tiring and so bloody expensive! I mean, not really party animal but gosh we partied like crazy. It all started with the last KL Tower rave and since then my interest to the genre has been more intense. I'm starting to love it again - hence how Tiesto 2 Days of Freedom at Port Dickson and following week was Yoji & Missy E at Genting Highlands took place. (and it was one hell of an after party at ...... ) Even on a daily basis, i'm normally out of the house at 8pm, and sometimes coming home at 2am. Shish. And I was thinking, ok maybe this week we stay in kinda thing - it happened on Saturday. Friday was karaoke with the "subangians" and it didn't end there. We chilled at Boyd's friends place at Bangsar til we even woke his granddad up. SORRY! I so think it was me, i think i really laughed so loud but yea it was something hilarious and I couldn't help but laugh. By the time I got home, it was 5.30am.

*background music playing No Air by Jordin Sparks ft. Chris Brown

It's hard to keep up with the pace when your real slow - if you get what I mean..

Then came Saturday. We stayed in, but it was quite a tiring staying in as well. Very tiring. Chilled out at my place, in my room. So smoky and hazy, at one point I thought I had no air. Tapi sebenarnya paranoid only. And I wonder why after that chilling out session at mine, alot of questions were asked and directed to me as if everyone was waiting for something to happen. So anxious. (something fishy is going on and I'm definitely crack this!) Question's directed to me was all about the same topic; no comment! (is it really all about me? Kidding...,)

*background music playing Belaian Jiwa by Innuendo

Arh well, I've got 2 weeks more to enjoy this beautiful moments before my life starts again as a flight attendant. As it was said "..some more your training is gonna start and you gonna go everywhere.." so yea, 2 weeks eyh? I realize that when you get something you want, and that means anything - you lose out on another thing; which is also something you want and you had it but because you wanted something else you blindly let go of the other.

But what is it that I got? I don't even know what is going on actually and coincidentally a song plays on the background..

*background music playing What's Going On by 4 Non Blondes

*sigh

xoxo