Why did you cry when I said I was gonna leave?

Everything was just an act, for me to focus on something you know I would focus on badly. You wanted all! How selfish can you get! The things you've said and done is just plain shit to me now! How could you play such games and then thing it would all just go like that! (sepandai2 tupai melompat, akhirnya jatuh ke tanah juga..) Never think you can runaway if you don't even know how to hide. If you wanna play the game, master it first then play it. Don't be rookie and try your luck, because when the shit hits the fan, it would hit badly!

You've fooled someone as though that someone was just born yesterday. That someone has played that game before. Mastered it! (still he didn't play the game with you..) And to think I sob like it was all my fault. But now, I guess the blame wasn't towards me, it is you! You are too selfish to think of anyone else but your own satisfaction! Your own feelings! Have you ever thought of mine? I don't think so, because if you did all this fucking game wouldn't have happen! All this time I thought you were just confused, didn't what you want as normal; but its not that your confused, your just selfish! You want everything, and you want everything your way. And when it got fucked up, to hectic for you to handle, you just leave like a coward. (never thinking of the consequences..)

Am I just your doormat? Something that you can step on? Im tried of being your doormat. Im too tired to be anything anymore. Because at the end of the day, Im the one hurting and still your the one having fun! (I still wonder what I was lacking still you could do such fucked up things...) I gave up everything to be with you, and sacrifice so much with you, I've been thru ups and definitely fucking down with you, but sometimes I think you weren't even thankful. Because if that game was your word of appreciation, then you've got to look for help.

I never knew a person like you could do such things. To think you've learnt from the first, but I guess you never did learn. No wait you did learn but you've learn different things. That wasn't supposed to be adapt but it was suppose to be a lesson! (lets we both pray hard that karma don't get to you, because if it did, you cant runaway and if you have grown up from what you are then you are not gonna make it anywhere!) But I give hands up for fooling me! If you were among the 'playas clan' they would have when Whoaa!! And if you were to be nominated for the Oscar, you would beat any other actors nominated!

Why did you cry when that was what you wanted? Why did you stop me when you wanted me to go? Why did you hurt me when all I did was tried to make you happy? Why were so dumb to think you can runaway from all these? Why did you even bother when you actually didn't even give a flying fuck? Above all this, why did you say you loved me and when you were loving everyone else?

Sadly, no matter how fucked up you are, and no matter how much I hate you right now; I still cant let go of you, and I still cant stop thinking and worrying about you.

Now, my last WHY is; why did you cry when I said I was gonna leave?