Break up, retrenched, Air Asia?

We didn't hit the 1 year bench, I got retrenched from Jet Airways and thing's were a bit messy for awhile.

I would say that it was a selfish break up, but then again break up's cant be fair rite? Unless if it was a mutual decision. The break up is still so fresh in my head - liked it happened yesterday. I can't say that I didn't see it coming or I wasn't warned but I was just shocked that it actually came down to that. You know how it feels when your finally back in town after being away for days, besides your family you would obviously want to meet your partner/lover or whatever. Best part is you were also bearing some good news and yea you want to celebrate.

After sex, SLAM! ".. I think I'm confused.." A familiar line? I knew there was something bothering him but I wasn't expecting this. To be honest, at that point if I had a knife or a gun in my hand I would have killed him because the feeling of hatred exploded so hard. I felt disgusted. I felt used. I felt sad and most of all I felt so hurt. All this feelings had drained out my energy so all I could do that time was cry.

I'm not ashamed to admit this but I still do cry about it.

And Izmil being an idiot, ask for some time. Begged him to stay just for a week. That was one stupid move I did because the wound just got even deeper. Before the week ended, I came to collect my stuff. It ended when he said so. Its sad that I felt as I was the only hurting. I felt like I was nothing to him. I was crushed.

The next morning, or was it noon - I received a text. I was shocked! The exact words in my head was "he couldn't at least wait for a week or 2.. It had to be on the same night?.." It was a lil rough for me but somehow I managed to cope. I managed to project a strong "I dont give a fucked face" and at the same time "my life is nuthin without you around face". It was like a rollercoaster ride, but it was just going down.

After a month I got retrenched. Can you fucking believe it?


*to be continued...