A whole new year to a same beginning!

Its 2008!

A new year, hopefully for a fresh start! Then I realize that, I did get my fresh start but why with the same beginning of every other year I've been around. Lost. Troubled. Horny. And what hurts the most I'm still alone.


All these while it was me whose blinded.

And it hurt even more, that I had to let go someone that has always been there for me no matter what shit I brought him into he always saw the good side of me. After 5 years of knowing him, of spending nights with him, giving me all the luxury in life to some people who dreams for it, of actually loving me even for a fact I was loving someone else, someone who saw something in me which I've still not discovered, someone who never gave up and most important someone who made me realize that no matter what family will always comes first. And yes that is why we ended our 5 year on off relationship because I didn't want to get in the way and yes he wants to pay attention to his family which by the way is getting bigger! Hope you have a great life ahead of you Johan, just remember I'll still be here.

So what's this year's resolution?

Like all other's resolution, it's still the same. You see what I meant by same beginning? I guess it's gonna be the same if I dont act on it, so again I'm gonna try. I've gotta keep on trying, at least I know I'm still not giving up cause If it was giving up than I'm in for some serious trouble!

2 weeks in the new year of 2008, what's been up?

Drama, emotional break down, troubled, solving issues that I should be solving when I'm 30, catching up on life that I've been missing, seeking for a profound love somewhere (and I think I'll still be seeking even at 30..), trying to get my career back up and running, *sigh same old same old I guess.